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My life to me was going down hill, and I still think it is.
I will be a mom by the end of this year, I dont know what I am doing or what I still want out of life.
I just had a one night stand with one of my good guy friend and he left after I told he was going to be a dad.
I'm 22 and I am back home to get help. I have alot in my head.
I have been talking with one of my ex and we have been thinking of getting back togethet and making things work with us. Right now he is still in jail and will be out in a year. He is helping me and still wants to be there for me when he is out. But I stilll dont know what I am doing. I pary to God everyday to help me and I know he has something good plan for me.
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Hi all. I'm writing on behalf of a friend of mine. She is a 30 year old single mom in Upper Darby, Pa, just outside of Philadelphia. A few years ago she had gastro-bypass surgery, and there were serious complications, the result of which she is now considered semi-terminal, and is only expected to have a few years left to live. She has an eight year old daughter who suffers from chronic asthma and seizures. The mom is also a survivor of an abusive relationship. Because of her surgery she is unable to work, and she is receiving disability and some food stamps. She receives some assistance from her local church, and I have just given her the phone number for the local St. Vincent DePaul Society in her area. All in all she is barely able to get by, and struggles to keep enough food on the table for her little girl and clothes on their back. I have basically no experience in helping someone in this sort of situation, and I was wondering if anyone here could possible point me in the direction of resources, both financial and emotional support, for this woman. Thank you!

Peace in Christ,
Michael
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You know, when I was young, I went to church a few times a week. There are things I saw in the church and some of the actions of the members really made me lose faith. I had a falling out with my mother and father (they were divorced and both remarried). I left home to make my own way in the world. I fell from grace. HARD.

When I left home at 18, unbeknownst to me, I was pregnant. When I finally figured it out, I did some pretty unsavory things to obtain an abortion. I didn't know how to help myself, let alone help a child. God has forgiven me (even if I haven't forgiven myself) and loves me. I find that comforting every day. Anyway, I began a downward guilt spiral. To forget what I did, I started drinking. The drinking led to sleeping with many men, most I had never met before that night. When I think of all the men I slept with, I thank God EVERY day that I didn't get AIDS.

I went through most of my 20's as THE party girl. Most nights were spent drinking in a bar after I got off work. Friends of mine dropped our friendship because they were tired of seeing me go down this destructive path. The more friends I lost, the more destructive I got, the more the devil said to me "See, look how worthless you are. Your parents couldn't love you, no one you sleep with loves you, your friends don't want to be around you.". And I listened to him. Oh, how I listened. I should have grabbed the nearest Bible and read the following:

John 3:14-21 (NASB)
14As Moses lifted up the serpent in the wilderness, even so must the Son of Man be lifted up;

15so that whoever believes will in Him have eternal life.

16For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life.

17For God did not send the Son into the world to judge the world, but that the world might be saved through Him.

18He who believes in Him is not judged; he who does not believe has been judged already, because he has not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God.

19This is the judgment, that the Light has come into the world, and men loved the darkness rather than the Light, for their deeds were evil.

20For everyone who does evil hates the Light, and does not come to the Light for fear that his deeds will be exposed.

21But he who practices the truth comes to the Light, so that his deeds may be manifested as having been wrought in God.


Verse 18 is really what gets me every time. I believe, therefore I am not judged. After all of the unGodly things I did, He does not judge me. And God loves me. God loves ME. Why? It doesn't matter why. He just does. He created Jesus to come to us and die for our sins. Jesus wasn't here to judge people. He came here to walk on this earth to save us.

Today I Pray:
Dear God, I thank you for loving me. And I thank you for sending your only son to die for my sins and to wash them away. Thank you for not judging me but loving me because that is what I need. I feel your arms around me and your love washes through me. This is my daily comfort. In your loving name, Amen.
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As I was looking over the different Christian Communities on LJ, I realized there is none for single Christian moms. Then I thought, Hey, why not start one? We really need to support each other because there is few places we can go for support.

First, let me tell you a little about myself. I am a single mom of the most sinful kind. I've never been married and I have a beautiful 6 year old daughter. Her father and I were together for 5 years. I chose not to marry him because I knew he wasn't the right man for me. At the time I felt he was what I deserved.

I grew up in the Christian faith, but I strayed away because I felt unloved by my parents and if they couldn't love me, how could God? Silly me! I became an alcoholic, I slept around looking for love and acceptance with my body, and I entered abusive relationships thinking that is what I deserved because I was worthless. I had my daughter and realized that I didn't want her growing up thinking it was OK for her to be treated the way I let myself be treated. Slowly, I have been breaking the strongholds of the devil, but it hasn't been easy. I was afraid to go to church. I was so scared I would be condemned and that I would be thrown out for being an unmarried single mother. Luckily, I found some great friends that have helped me grow stronger in my faith and have turned me on to some great women speakers ~ Joyce Meyer, Beth Moore, and Sheri Rose Shepherd.

Anyhow, here I am and here we are. All I ask is that everyone be respectful of each other. Disagreeing is fine, but please be respectful and not rude.

God Bless...
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